Monday, May 11, 2015

Reflection

My ultimate experience with creating my YouTube channel has been a blast. It really showed me who I am, not only as a person to myself, but how I come off to others as well. Throughout the many ups and downs of my project, all the endless support and the mass amount of love that I have received from everyone in doing this 20 time project/YouTube channel is unbelievable. In all honesty though, I didn't get as far as I'd hoped. With so many different bumps in the road and not having a "mentor",  it's really hard to kind of figure things out on your own. And with creating a YouTube channel that's kind of what I had to do. Everything I did was mostly me. With the help of my family buying me my starter camera, I had bought my own laptop to edit videos, I bought my own tripod to film with, I make my own banners, I make my own thumbnails, I film everything myself, nearly everything that has shown up on my YouTube channel is me. And although that's one of the things that I like about this project, The fact that if you're a caring person you could do something generous or if you're an adventurous person you could do something risky, it doesn't really mean anything if you can't share the moment with someone else. Like the time I posted my very first video. It was such an amazing, yet nerve wrecking feeling that I don't think anyone would have understood unless they had been with me through the many challenges I had to face just to get that one video up. The waiting to save up money to buy certain materials, the long nights of editing, possibly talking too loud or too low in a video, not being able to get the sound work, the computer having a virus, etc.. There are so many things that can go wrong with doing a simple project, but when you finally get it right, it's a breathtaking experience. An experience that you wish you had someone to share with. And although I did have other people being happy for me, I wanted to have someone to be happy with me! You know how that saying goes "we're re not laughing at you we're laughing with you." It would be nice to have someone to laugh with. Besides all of this though, I really enjoyed doing this. YouTube is my thing and I like it and so I did it. And that's what 20 time to me is about: having an interest in something, making a reality of it, and working some magic to achieve a goal. Thank you to anyone and everyone who's kept up with me on both my YouTube page and my blog. I appreciate you so much. Lots of love!
-Zaria

Sunday, April 19, 2015

What's Next? TEDx !

My YouTube channel isn't going as far as I wanted it to, but that's okay, because I know that with a little time and effort, it'll be there. But to steer away from my YouTube channel, let's get into the whole reason why I started this project in the first place. Because of the 20 time. After 20 time, we are required to give a speech on what we learned from our project. There's not much that I can say that I have learned by recording videos in my room and posting them for the whole world to see. However we also have the option to give a speech on a completely different topic, may it be related to our project or not. That's the route I am choosing to take. I'm going to write a talk about feminism. These talks that take a different way from our 20 time projects are for an event called TEDx which I believe stands for technology, education, and design. The X standing for independently organized event. Although feminism doesn't really have much to do with technology or design, I believe it has a lot to do with education. Educating our children and those uninformed around us about the effects that women can have on the world. Now I don't want to go too in depth on this topic in my blog post, because I'm hoping that I am chosen to speak at this TEDx event, and you will be able to hear all about it on YouTube, however if I am not chosen, I will definitely be posting the speech myself here on my blog spot. Being that this is something that is very important to me, I really do hope I am chosen, because I was told that a talk should be something that you want to bring attention to. Something that you're passionate about. Something that you feel others need to know. And I believe that feminism is all three of those things: attention seeking, passion filled, and knowledgeable.
Thank you guys so much for keeping up with me even after all this time. From being a blog about sickle cell disease, to being a YouTuber, to now trying to write speeches for a nationally known event.  Seriously, thank you all so much, and an even greater thank you to the person who started this all. You know who you are.
-Zaria 

Monday, March 23, 2015

Ba Da Ba Ba Baaaa - I'm lovin' it!

Hello, Everyone
I have been LOVING! being a YouTuber. Editing videos and creating thumbnails just puts me at a level of creativity that can't be achieved through just writing, drawing, or even singing (and singing to me is just about as creative as I can get).
There are so many ideas running through my mind and they just won't stop. I watch videos from SoulPancakeBethany MotaPOPSUGAR Foods, and more! All of these channels give me ideas and motivation to keep going on with this channel and to just expand my limits. From inspiration videos, to DIYs, and homemade goods, there's literally nothing I can't do (except for drive. Driving is a really big limitation for me!). To know that there is a certain magic that can happen with a camera and a laptop is just beyond me and even beyond this world. I've never been more happy with myself and with what I'm doing.
I am so happy that I'm legitimately thinking about homeschooling, so I can make more videos and really commit. This probably won't happen though, but a girl can dream. Seeing how next year is going to be my most important school year, I think it's best that I do stay in school, no matter how far YouTube might take me. Education is so important nowadays and although online schooling has a few more educational pros, I think I'd miss the whole "High school social scene" with rival football games, spirit week, sports teams, choir competitions and just being around people in general.
YouTube is kind of like that. Being around people without actually having to be around them. It's cool and I like it.

Anyways, I have a new video coming out very soon, so make sure you keep an eye out for it! I'm really excited about this one too. I think it might be my best one yet! Hope you guys have watched a few of my other videos and you tell me what you think! Like, comment, and SUBSCRIBE!

Thanks for everyone's support, I love you all so much!
-Zaria

Monday, March 9, 2015

Hello everyone!
I'm so excited to share my new video with you all! I have so much more in store and I can't wait to share with you exactly what it is that I'll be doing in the future! Everyone has been incredibly supportive and I couldn't ask for more. I love you all so much! Go watch my new video and make sure you like, comment what kind of videos you'd like to see from me, and most importantly SUBSCRIBE! Thanks again everyone.

-Zaria ❤


TMI Tag: Crushes, My Fears, & Favorite Foods!: http://youtu.be/FTv9VGxATPA

Monday, February 23, 2015

FINALLY!

I finally got a video up! It was fun to record, but took hours to edit. Then again I'm a procrastinator, so I would've expected that. All my friends have been extremely supportive and I didn't tell any of my family, because if I flop I will never hear the end of it! I can't wait for my channel to take off (if it takes off). I will get to go to Playlist Live, DigiTour, VidCon, and just all of these other greatYouTuber  conventions. I'm too stoked! Make sure you guys check out my video too! And like it, comment, and SUBSCRIBE! 
Thanks for keeping up with me guys!
-Zaria

Monday, February 9, 2015

Bump in the Road?

I am so excited to start making YouTube videos. The only thing that's stopping me right now is the fact that I don't have a charger for my laptop. I already have a pretty good camera, I know what type of videos I want to make, and I have all of the ideas in my head. All I need now is editing software which is on my computer. I know all the hardships that come with making YouTube videos and to me I don't consider them hardships. They are just things like making sure you edit nicely, adding good music to your backgrounds, having a good intro/outro, and making sure you appeal to all of your viewers. Someone that I Watch to get ideas and inspiration from is Bethany Mota. Her videos can range from teens who want to do New Years Eve makeup, To teachers who want cool DIY snacks for the class, to college students who want DIY dorm decor. She has such a broad base underneath her, that she is sponsored by Target, Aeropostale, many craft stores, Seventeen Magazine, and many more! She has also traveled the world. She's gone from New York all the way to Tokyo, then to England and back to most of the United States! She is who inspires me to make YouTube videos, and the fact that I can't because of one minor bump is driving me crazy. But I guess this is what doing something you love does. It drives you crazy especially when there are obstacles in front of you. My goal is to have at least three YouTube videos up before the school year is over and if I don't achieve that goal...... well...... I'm just going to have to work harder! The only thing I truly care about though, is the fact that I am actually having fun doing 20 Time in class. Also there are times I catch myself doing 20 time out of class and when I realize it, I feel so privileged to be able to do something that I love for a grade. How many students do you know who can actually say that and mean it? Not many? I didn't think so.
Thanks for reading my blog and keeping up with me! I promise to have some videos up soon! 

-Zaria

Monday, January 26, 2015

How to Fail: with Zaria

Hello everyone, and welcome to how to fail: with Zaria. Recently I've been failing tremendously. I failed a few of my midterms (C+ average on the American grade scale), I failed many of my New Year's resolutions (running more than I eat and not procrastinating [i've been procrastinating on writing this blog post when it was supposed to be finished by this morning]), and I even failed to remember to bring my backpack to school this morning. What a great way to start second semester, am I right guys! Honestly, I don't really care about all that stuff that I failed at, because it's not going to be something that I take entirely too seriously to the point where it's going to haunt me for the rest of my life if I don't succeed. So what if I get a bad grade, so what if I ate my bodyweight in brownies and slept right after, and so freaking what if I forgot my backpack at home. If anything, I need a load off anyway. Anyways, as you can see, failing is kind of what I'm good at. I succeed at failing. Oh, the irony. Although I don't really care about failing at all of those things, there is one thing in particular that I'm kind of upset or should I say disappointed in myself that I didn't follow through with. This project. I know I'm sick and tired of writing out all of my complaints on a blog post that, what, four or five people are going to read, so I'm almost positive that those four or five people are just as annoyed and a bit irritated as I am. I keep making up excuses, or throwing a pity party for myself, or just not doing anything to change exactly what it is that I've been complaining about. So, to do so, I'm deciding to drop everything and start from scratch. Well, not completely from scratch, but from something that I've been holding back on. My YouTube channel. It's something that I've always wanted to do as a kid and even now that I can definitely see myself continuing to do in the future. Sickled Cells and Even Hearts is something that I'm going to sigh out of relief when it's over. It's going to be one of those things that I tell lower-class men "Please, please, please do something that you love and that you want to do, not just because it makes others happy, but because it's what YOU think is cool!" I want to be able to tell them "I did this! I did that! And I'm still doing this! And I'm still doing that! And the reason why am still doing it is because I love it! Take this opportunity and make it something big!" 
Now I know what some of you are thinking. You may be saying to yourself that this is something that I could easily fail at as well, however I will be failing, but I will fail with grace and poise and laughter and happiness. Probably not the grace and poise part because.... I'm not the most elegant or sublime person. I am more of the eat my bodyweight in brownies and then go to sleep kind of person, however that will not stop me from failing, nor will it stop me from succeeding either! 
So this is it. How to fail: with Zaria


Step 1: Choose something you think you'd be GOOD at
Step 2: Be BAD at it!
Step 3: FAIL
Step 4: Move on
Step 5: Repeat steps 1-4 until you feel you got it right (even if everyone is telling you otherwise)

Linking a new Blog Spot and a new YT video soon! Thanks a lot to everyone! 

-Zaria

Monday, January 12, 2015

Beware of Cliff!

Hello everyone!

So over the break, I had a lot planned that I needed to get done. However since it was break, I did kind of slack off a bit, so I didn't really get all that I wanted finished, but I did get a good amount.

Over winter break, Christmas and New Year's Eve took place. I'm not sure whether or not I've mentioned this, but my God brother has sickle cell which is the reason why I started Sickled Cells and Even Hearts in the first place. With him having sickle cell, he was in the hospital for the beginning of my break. It was almost Christmas and so my cousin told me that if he wasn't out by the day before Christmas Eve, we would go and visit him. Luckily he was out way before then and we got to spend both Christmas Eve and Christmas with him in the comfort of our own home and not in the hospital.

During the first week out of school I kind of didn't want to do anything that was school related a.k.a. this project. I know this sounds really bad, because this project is supposed to be something that I'm passionate about, so I should want to do it inside of school, outside of school, even when school is over, over the summer, during college, etc.. Saying so, I often contemplate whether or not this is a project I really want to do. I've already bragged about it to my family members about how I'm going to "help out sick people" and "do great things for those who suffer from this deadly disease", but the more I think about it, the more I kind of feel that I am doing it just to say that I've helped someone (hence why I used the word bragging).

If helping out someone with sickle cell was the case, I should've done this a long time ago. I shouldn't have to have a teacher bring up a project and then say, "Oh, hey! This is what I'm going to do to change people's lives." Instead, if I was really serious about this, I would've started a long time ago, because my God brother has sickle cell before I was even born.

I guess what happened was when my teacher brought up the project and showed us examples of previous students and all the great things they've done, I didn't want to do something that was not valuable enough to call a 20 time project. Last year there were people climbing mountains, people learning new music for the first time, writing their own music for the first time, and there were people sitting with new students at lunch, or sitting at a different table every day at lunch, and talking to new kids. I felt like I had to meet that standard of being a life changer. A go-getter. Or just an all-around prevailing student.

 When I think about it, if that was the case, my project would be beautiful! Amazing! Taking on a bigger and greater things already. Since we are going into a second semester, so far the only thing I've completed was filling out the worksheet to give to my teacher that says 'I'm going to do this and this is good for me because...' The more I think about it, the worksheet was probably invalid as well, because this project isn't good for me. It's supposed to be good for others and I want to be a giving person. I want to be the one that people talk about in the hallways or I want to be that person that my teacher honors to have come into his new Sophomore class and talk to his students about finding that passion and doing that one thing that'll take your mind, soul, and body over the edge. Or at least something cliché and unpromising like that and I feel the only way I can do that is if I do something that's not only going to impact my life, but impact others' lives as well.

 I want to be a caring person and I want to be someone who can go up to anyone in need and give them the help that they deserve without taking two months to do it. This project honestly should've taken off by now.

What's even more disheartening is that I call it a project. It shouldn't be just a project, it should be a goal and I can't find myself setting goals for this certain activity. I feel so terrible when I say this and when I write things like this, for when I talk about this to my peers, they say how they never would've thought of it or that its something they know will take off.

In all honesty, I would've changed my project along time ago if it wasn't for some of you commenting and telling me all this seems like such a good idea. If it wasn't for those people, I would've changed this project a very, very, very long time ago. I honestly think it's too late to change, therefore I'm going to be adding another project!

I'm going to be doing a second one and this one is going to be something that I'm very passionate about that I see myself doing out of school, during the summer, during school, etc.. I am going to be starting a YouTube page and I know I know it's very cliché, extremely self-righteous, and a little conceited maybe, but I feel like I need something to look forward to when I do 20 time, because when we do it in class, I always find myself asking other people what they're doing, reading their blog, seeing how everything is coming along with theirs. I never really focus on my own thing, because I'm not that interested in it.

I will still be doing Sickled Cells and Even Hearts, however, I will be taking on another project. One that I can be happy about! Not that I'm not happy about Sickled Cells and Even Hearts, but something that I can actually call my own and that I know will go along way in my life.

I have to learn to find that balance between being a giving person and finding what's good for myself. There's a saying that goes "Don't burn yourself to keep others warm" and I think about that a lot when I'm doing this project, because I try to push myself to do it, but I'm not really feeling it as much as I should and to me that's like pouring gasoline on myself already. I'm not necessarily on fire just yet, but if I try to make something work that I feel will not, i'm going to be going up in flames which is something I don't want for myself.

There's a part of me that feels bad that says "STICK IT OUT! YOU CAN DO IT! YOU WILL BE HAPPY WHEN YOU FINISH!", but then there's also a part of me that's saying "You can help others while also helping yourself."

It's kind of like falling off a cliff with your friends: if there's a possibility that you can save both yourself and them, then go for it! But if there's not, then you're faced with a tough decision and you have to think quickly. You can either save their life and create potential happiness for their families knowing that there are more people alive or you can save yourself and go warn others "Hey! This is not a good cliff! Don't hang from it!"

Anyways... sorry to go off on a long tangent, but to get straight to the point: I will be doing 20 Time projects and I hope you guys will join me in that journey as well!

And I know it's not a broad enough journey, one that people would want to keep up with, but it's something fun and lively and what I believe 20 Time is all about. I think that 20 Time is doing something you love, whether or not it helps someone, helps no one, or if it helps yourself. It can even be something crazy that you've always wanted to do.

Go for it! Do it! Live it! Love it! Just enjoy it, because it shouldn't feel like another class assignment and it shouldn't feel like homework.

I want to thank you guys so much for those of you who have been reading my blog posts and keeping up with the bare minimum of what I've done so far with this project. I feel like I've wasted your time and I want to apologize if anyone feels that way as well, especially since I've come so far with this project. To just not necessarily give it up, but to not pay as much attention to it as I should've, I still want to apologize and say that I hope you continue to see what I do with Sickled Cells and Even Hearts. Also, keep a look out for my new project! I will be linking my videos very soon.

So once again, I'm sorry, but I am also very thankful for all your support.

-Zaria